Edge of this Grave

Edge of this Grave

This chilled wind peaks,

Icicles rising in my cheeks.

Earth moved,

Exposed to humid loam.

Does a spirit roam ?

Would my heart have known,

Where my friend has flown ?

Open mouthed, inviting,

In we go, you and I.

Can I not follow,

Where you now go ?

For I want to fall,

Follow the sorry call,

Take the hollow all,

You tall, me small,

Oh yeah, fuck em all..!!

Brother you knew me,

Forgave my being odd,

Said even, I was a god,

But you're a lying sod..!

Happy am I still,

Even though you left,

We'd said what mattered,

Understood the painful truth,

No-one can stay in youth.

Never will I forget,

The love we have shown,

In friendship we had grown,

Together let our light be known.

An amazing treasure you were,

Filling the dullest of days,

And this truth I can praise.

As you are lowered in,

Part of me is, brea-a-a-a-king,

It feels like a shameful sin,

My body wracked, legs, sha-a-a-a-king,

I just know, I'll fa-a-a-a-all in.

And then the tears,,

Combines the love of years,

Sadness, pain, doubts, and many fears,

Aware you'll hear our cheers.

Hip Hip Hooray,

Ten thousand raucous cheers,

Heartfelt and grateful applause,

We kneel humbly, the celebration yours.

For you have touched so many,

Many lives with your grace,

You leave a big smile upon every face,

No-one left, to exchange your place....

Richard. L. Perry.

The Force of Habit

The Force of Habit

I walked this way,

Twice, three times,

Who's counting?

But I know it's

Hopeless,

To carry on down here.

This road has been

Blocked, cut off...

In my sleepwalk,

I could have covered

All this ground,

Without fail.

And because of routine,

I forget the futility,

Of the simple fact,

That you are gone.

No longer waiting,

No more responding,

To me....

A little Nibble

A little Nibble

Crunching through walnuts,

Soft sweet sponge and carrots,

Taste buds racing to know,

All the delights here to savour.

Tickling my tonsils,

Swirls of Earl Gray combine,

To make this taste fest,

Mine.

Delicious treats to come,

For an age of denial.

Don't they warn you,

A moment on the lips,

A lifetime on the hips ?

Better to enjoy this day,

Than wish it all away.

Let me nibble you,

Let me succumb to joy.

What Lies Beneath

What Lies Beneath

Under it all,

folds of weathered sun kissed skin,

is a soul,

that of a man,

that only you,

have been able to see.

Why and whom,

could have known,

just what became,

the day you,

came.

Never the same,

as I felt insane,

perhaps love to tame,

feeling your fame,

knowing a name.

Again, you came,

deeper, deeper, much deeper.

You alone,

saw the expanse,

knew how to dance,

put me in this trance,

are you really from France ?

The whole filled,

now,

distilled as Whiskey,

you're making me,

frisky,

to be ever so riske.

You:-

Drew me,

Knew me,

Blew me,

Away...!

One Hour

              One Hour

It is a little

known fact.

That,

one hour

spent in your company,

breathing your scent,

feeling your heart beating,

is,

one,

incredible adventure....!!

How dare you be ?

How dare you be ?

So beautiful in your slumber,

As the cotton touches scented skin.

Would it ever be possible to be,

More beautiful than this from within ?

You scare the weakness out of me,

To tell you just what I feel.

I'd die lonely and go to sheol,

If my voice denied this appeal.

Desire has grown way beyond sense,

For the love I'd shown to you.

Caught my breath in true homage,

Where all beauty has spread on through.

How dare you be so beautiful,

And suck all reason out of me.

Rest easy on your cozy red divan,

Knowing I never want to be set free.

Spitting Feathers

Spitting Feathers

Caught up in this scrap,

A ruck, a fight with life itself,

I feel exhausted and almost beaten,

Shall I fail under this pressure ?

When is it acceptable to quit ?

To accept defeat, to say under duress,

“I just don't give a shit.”

Lead a good life, and for what ?

To be brought down under illness,

Suffer an untimely exit in anger,

Of the indiscriminate soul reaper.

God give me courage,

To see a brighter new enduring dawn.

A place where love never fails,

To bring beauty to its earthly form.

My own vitriol for this loss,

Is like an overwhelming storm.

I flail and grab anything handy,

For why should my soul be torn ?

Ire is a handy tool never,

It has brought me only distress.

When could I have conceived better,

Where my heart be softly caressed.

I saw flesh yielding to disease,

And could not fight with it.

In a moment of delusion here,

Thought my love could heal it.

Then in a whispering of the light,

Candle flame extinguished forever.

And you my dear brother,

Accept that we, have now lost this fight.

'Richard'

Numb

Numb

for Richard.

His voice I fail to recognise,

I try desperately to conceive,

The many other reasons he'd call.

“You came to see Dad, he's at peace now,

glad to see, one last time, your happy face.”

I cannot breath,

Hands of ice gripping my heart.

Tears well, swiftly to sting,

To accuse me again my lack.

He's gone as a candle snubbed,

Lost to our loving embraces.

Heart stopped, clock ticking, silence,

Then tears of aching,

Stinging fury, flooding my face,

My friend has flown to grace.

Ages pass and I cry,

The echo along the line,

I pray his children time,

Wish my love could heal this crime.

Robbed of one we loved,

A friend who always cared,

never lacked in what he shared.

Deafening the noiseless pain,

I'll never see him again.

Smile, receive his light,

Share a tender word unheard.

Oh friend I'll miss you now,

But we'll have to cope somehow.

To reveal the pact we shared,

I pray you'd knew I cared.

The love was in your eyes,

Laughter your final words.

You will never ever be forgotten,

Though I'll miss you something rotten.

Cascading Curls

Cascading Curls

Oh how fickle I am,

letting the moment overtake me.

Fresh from the throws of romance,

your eyes burn deep into me.

A motion as clear as a sign,

you'd love me to take time.

Caressing you and the love,

massaging a slender neck too,

my hands finding the place,

to bring more smile to your face.

A flick from your glorious mane,

meant to drive me almost insane.

I covet an incredible grace,

with auburn frame close to face.

How the tumbling from hair,

is lighting me up like a flare.

Yes this passion is a clue,

how desire grew, anew, for you.

Seeing you this way.

Seeing you this way.

I'm so glad I came,

that I forced myself to come.

Despite the time, the distance,

I had wanted to see you again.

I wanted to say that the past,

recently disturbed was to be forgotten.

No money, no row, no lovers,

no family, no misunderstandings,

would hold me back this time.

Friendship such as these come,

so few times in a life,

and I have never forgotten at all,

the ways in which you'd cared.

Though a set of unpredictable,

and divisory circumstances arrived,

I never wanted to be estranged,

even if my attitude often changed.

And I've sadly missed you friend.

Time is enough for doubts,

I came to clear the air,

set our minds towards a truth,

you are always being truly loved.

I acted foolishly, without a clue,

of what our friendship meant to you.

I wonder too, can you forgive me,

for not setting things straight,

bordering on the accusing melody of hate ?

But here in the cold light of day,

I am so saddened to see you this way.

A person so vital, normally so strong,

dropped to a fragile, weezy shadow.

I hang close to brimming with tears,

yet weakened and facing new fears.

Remembering your strength through the years,

this tragedy, what that bastard cancer wrought,

I watch on as this battle you fought...

Richard died 2 days after I wrote this poem.

R.I.P.

9/6/2012

Old friend I miss you.

Old friend I miss you.

Many waters have passed,

Beneath the bridge of our lives.

So many days have elapsed,

Without hearing a note, a laugh.

Could it be the old adage?

Out of sight out of mind.

Many years have rolled by,

I wonder who it is with you.

Are you happy now with all,

Or do you sometimes miss me ?

Many wrongs confused with rights,

Who the devil knows the truth ?

Better we just leave the past,

To wilt as a flower leaves spring.

Better we would know once more,

The joy we knew in friendship.

'Richard'

Calypso Blue

Calypso Blue

Suddenly this ocean calms,

I spy an island under blue,

Deep in blue, it was you.

As the sun beloved,

Your eyes have called to me,

Smiling how I see, longing to be free.

Now I have believed,

A day would come to calm,

Lay your head beneath the palm.

Desire has grown today,

To be the best I can,

And be a man, your loyal man.

Yatchs could sail by,

And you'd still catch my eye,

Where spirits fly, calypso blue, my my...

Amorous Intentions

Amorous Intentions

 

So soft that cotton, dressing you,

Stripes and buttons coveting too.

Sun kissed skin tanned and taut,

Perfectly pert my eyes have sought.

Who amongst men could deny the sight,

Not want to kiss you every night ?

And long to hold you tenderly,

Let passion rise and hands run free.

Burning deep my desires now grow,

What gifts you'd share from well below.

A hint of craving, tasting love,

Scent of yearning to secure this love.

Parted lips begin to sweat with dew,

Heralding the power I'd share with you.

Take wanting to a desperate dip,

I firmly hold on to your gyrating hip.

And end this fiasco in perfect time,

Where salted skin is as finest wine.

x

Down by the Brook

Down by the Brook

After work, after dinner, afternoon.

Shadows dance, the sun cajoles,

Spirits fly from whispy breeze,

The flow of life behind the trees.

Gentle, calm the river meanders,

Calling rhythm into the heart of me.

Drifting off with chirping chorus,

Late the day, nobody saw us.

Here the midges dart and bite,

Here my companion rushes round,

And round and splashes gaily,

As if this all was meant for us.

Deep the thoughts of tranquil life,

Now I prayed to end the strife.

Settled for the lesser of evils,

Held accountable to giving people.

Here the law is pleasantness,

And where the love my dreams caress.